Today's reflections

I had an interesting and reflective evening today. I went to walk my dogs and was slightly annoyed with the 3 1/2 yr old because she knows better and was pleasantly surprised with the 14 week old because she shouldn't know a thing. Nah, really I have to give her credit. Although we don't have excellent training sessions every day, she does pretty da-gone-good and is always trying.

After a nice walk with the dogs, I rolled the windows down and drove through town. That's when I realized that, against better judgment, my new car makes me feel like more of a person. People don't look at my car the same way they looked at the old one, wondering how I was driving down the road. Now certainly much of this could be attributed to my lack of embarrassment for the new car. It seemed always in the old car I'd pull into a parking lot full of cars with paint and feel instantly embarrassed.

So, the car makes me a "real"person. That's kinda of frightening but I certainly can understand the snowball effect of wanting material possessions. I certainly hope I don't fall into that trap. I'll do my best to prevent it. It will help that I can't stand debt.

On my mile walk to the internet I watched the full moon (or nearly full, I was too busy thinking to really notice) rise in front of a pink sky with a wisp of cloud circling the top left side like a slightly skewed halo, I realized just like my dogs, I should know better than letting a material possession alter my fundamental self. Maybe it really hasn't I've just never pondered it before.

Still, I realize the dogs and I really aren't that different in some ways. I'm old enough to know better but young enough to keep trying. And much like the pup fighting the leash, I'm not always sure what I'm trying for, but I'm not about to stop.